So much to write about. The meeting Friday night was wonderful. It was definitely the place God wanted me to be at the time. It felt right. It felt peaceful. And I was really glad to see B at his meeting and getting his 24 hour medallion. I didn't get to hear what he said as I stood just outside the doorway. The last we heard from their group was that they wanted us to respect their privacy and not come in. And since we didn't have time to ask a member of his meeting we left it at that. I was in the room in spirit and B knew that. We arranged to meet at the doors afterward. So I still got to congratulate him and to see his medallion.
The guys got a true test after the meeting. The center forgot to come pick them up. They all stood around outside the building for 45 minutes after everyone left. Which was ok in that aspect. It was a beautiful night. They got a longer period of fresh air. The test however was just a block and a half away was a big old neon light blinking ON/OFF Sale. Yikes. They joked around a bit about pooling their money and such but no one really wanted to do it. What a powerful test from the Lord especially in the early stages.
Saturday night I went into the center for a open meeting for patients and family and former patients/family. It was good. I got to sit next to B. And it was really nice. The meeting is chaired by one of the patients which is good and next Saturday B is chairing it. We visited for a bit afterwards. And then one of the other patients wife and I walked out together. We talked in the parking lot for another 20 minutes. It was really good. A new friend. Which is good, it will be a healthy couple friendship that B and I can possibly nurture together at some point.
Sunday was wonderful and scary at times. The girls were excited to see daddy. They were even more excited to find out that daddy got to go with us somewhere. Plus having it be someplace fun, a kids play place at the mall, made their day. B and I had been discussing things and had finally come to an understanding about getting the R ears pierced. He wanted to wait until she was 12 before he started treatment. He was able to see that she's ready for them. So that was an additional surprise for her. She was so thrilled. Until the snapped the earrings in. Then she cried. Even with daddy holding her hands. But then daddy was the one that picked her up and comforted her. That was a big plus for him that day.
Scary parts were when B had to run to the restroom at the mall. I started having all sorts of bad thoughts about him stopping at any of the restaurants there and getting a beer. I had to force myself not to follow him. And was able to stop just short of keeping my eye's rooted to the direction of the bathroom. Then when we went to lunch it didn't even phase me that the place had a bar in it until the waiter started running down their specials. Um... can you go away please? But we both just shook our heads no and asked for a diet coke. Not bad. A bit nerve racking but we managed.
Also during lunch we were talking about how nice a day it was. Weather wise, conversation wise, just generally. R was sitting next to me and she just smiled the sweet innocent smile of a 5 year old and goes ..."Isn't it fun without drinking?" 
Oh my!! My head started spinning. Yikes. Diffuse situation quick! But B was a trooper. He just looked at her and goes. Yes. Yes it is. And it's just the beginning.
So things are getting better. Communication is still open. Worries and apprehensions are still there. I'm not good at waiting. I want to know the outcome now. I think the Lord is giving me another test. All good things come to those who wait...that is the saying. Well I'll make an effort to wait. Not saying I'll like it or it will be easy. But I'm willing to try. I just have to remember that things will come about when they are ready to.
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